...of losing someone you love is that...life has to go on for the living. what i mean is you've suffered this HUGE heartbreak. you feel like all the stores and schools should close for a week. it should be declared a national week of mourning. but, none of that happens. people still show up to their 9 to 5's, teachers still give pop quizzes...life goes on. and you see people who (God forgive me!) you feel are undeserving of another breath and you wonder, why, Lord? why did you take him/her and allow this idiot to continue breathing air? john and i took kea to the lakefront yesterday. i'm a HUGE homebody (i.e. hermit!) but my husband is just the opposite. so, to keep the man smiling, i go out and smell the flowers sometimes. it was beautiful. the wind was blowing so it didn't feel like we were having tea in hell. we got ice cream cones from mcdonald's and sat on the steps, watching the water, the fish jumping out of the water, the boats moving lazily back and forth, and...the two idiots whose screaming got louder and louder. ummm, one of these things does NOT belong! (YA THINK?!?) this couple (who were sitting lovingly together when we first parked) exploded in anger after we had been there for about fifteen minutes. the argument got so bad that john and i started plotting our escape if things got worse (i.e. HE decided to pull out a gun and pop a cap in her ...you know!) i guess he wasn't answering the questions the way she wanted him to because she started slapping him in the face to emphasis how upset she was. he bent down to avoid the licks and she KNEED HIM IN THE FACE! that was ALL homeboy could take because he was slapping her all OVER the place! now, let me tell you why john and i didn't hurriedly dial 911. after that first lick, she didn't grap her face in surprise; she didn't look around for help. she was ALL UP IN THERE with him like he was manny!!! you could tell that this was a regular occurence for them. after the smack down, they continued their heated discussion. it was SO SAD!!! whenever i see something like this after a tragedy, i wonder why people like that are still breathing when productive loved ones can no longer contribute to society. again, God forgive me because i know it's not for me to question...i'm just hurting right now.
WOOSAH! (deep breath!) so, even though my heart has holes in it...i have to go on. here are my newest layouts for lotus (last week's and this week's):
make sure to get over there and take part in this week's (sketch) challenge for a chance for some goodies!
i want to say thanx to all of you who have sent your condolences. do you know it's you all (in conjunction with my husband) who hold me up? i am the only one of my mother's children who had a different father. i said that to say this: my sisters and brothers haven't even called to check on me and YOU have! you have made my heart mend (some!) with your warm thoughts, prayers and comments...you're SO appreciated! another wonderful aspect of this week-peggy
gave me TWO blog awards!!!
plus, you HAVE to read the wonderful comment she wrote:
Keandra - I love you girl!!! I'm always so excited to see you've made a new entry in your blog, because then I know I'm in for a treat. Not only do you make some of the best LO's around (I adore your work!!!!), but you share so much of your personal life on your blog that I sometimes feel like I know you personally. You make me laugh, you make me cry, you make me feel proud of your boys, and with those pics of your food you put on your blog, a lot of the times you make me want to come over for dinner LOL. I feel this is a true friendship, and I want you to know how fortunate I feel to have met you, even though it's a cyberspace friendship!
that is SO BRUDIFUL!!!! i feel all warm inside! i really pray to God that He gives me the opportunity to meet some of my wonderful online friends in person someday (and under GOOD circumstances...you gotta be careful what you pray for!) so, in keeping with the blog award requirement, i pass these two along to:
1. julie- because she's so funny, sweet and creative...and i'm excited about meeting her in a
couple of weeks!
2. taj-because she's my girl...she holds me up on a daily basis!
3. pam- so REAL...so WARM...so TALENTED!!!
4. mands-(see pam!) we have SO MUCH in common!
5. jaime lynn-just one of the most wonderfully talented ladies i've NEVER met!
that's it for now. my grandfather's service is tomorrow. please continue to pray for us...i feel every prayer!